The pencil note will not save me

Bae Yu-jin says do not go to 2104 and I want to ask why but I also do not want to know why. Rooms get flagged for rebooking damage, guest complaints, things left in safes. Or staff problems. Maybe someone in 2104 broke something and blamed housekeeping and I am the convenient name because I have a file now, a real paper file at the Jongno clinic with my name and my injury and a box someone else checked in handwriting that is not mine. I wrote 'under duress' in pencil. Pencil can be erased. They know that. The pencil note is a fantasy I am performing for myself so I can walk out of that clinic with my subsidy intact and my doorman's clip approved. Performance documentation. Like everything else.

Hye-jin sent a tangerine. A tangerine emoji after eleven days of nothing and I do not know what to do with it. I want to screenshot it and send it to Bae Yu-jin as evidence that people still remember I exist outside of hotel corridors and clinic forms. I want to screenshot it and not send it because what if Bae Yu-jin reads something into it that I do not want read. What if there is nothing to read. What if Hye-jin just missed me and that is allowed and I am the one turning a tangerine into a test I already failed.